Oh What Pain…

Sensitive content - this post contains the topic of suicide You know how algorithms on social media sites such as Facebook and Instagram work right? Even if you aren't sure how they work, you probably have some understanding of them and if not, you've probably had moments where you've been terribly upset by them. Moments…

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It’s Another Day

She's spiralling again. And yes, she's entirely still Her body is in one position, while her mind goes a mile a minute She hears them call themselves stupid and tears fill her eyes as she turns towards the demeaning voices, and with the most profound conviction says, 'never, never call yourself stupid!' She explains how…

Musings of a Busy Mind

I wonder what you hear when I say I’m tired. I wonder if you think me lazy. I wonder how many more sentences I can squeeze out while you figure it out. I wonder how long it will take for you to understand my language. I wonder… because I really am tired. I wonder but…

Lazy Humans

I heard Bisola crying last week; I heard Uche suddenly bring up suicide. Hassana's shoulders drooped; her eyes looked weary. Tosan sighed incessantly and stared unseeingly. Ufedo wore long sleeves in the summer. Aisosa always sat alone. Always. I noticed all these and more; The soundless cries from drowning souls; Got no response from me.…

When | Poem

When the shadows close in When you feel closed in When breathing feels so difficult When holding your head up is tiring When doubts consume your thoughts  When your chest feels caged  When your mind seems full and blank When nothing and everything matters These times might seem far apart These times might seem never…

Two-Faced

Anxiety Pressure in the chest Biting nails, jumpy eyes Tight throat, dizziness Oh please Freeze time, disappear, take a breath All around, the world moves And yet, not at all Scream please Voice cut off Failing heart... pressure... more pressure Shaky hands... pressure Heavy feet... pressure Pounding head... pressure Tightening up Threatening... never ending Ever…

Distorted Reasonings

'I've never heard of a thing so selfish'  they hit their head in frustration 'How does a human being give in to thoughts in their head?' 'How does a sensible person allow these thoughts to fester and take over?' 'At the end of the day, they are simply that -thoughts' 'Thoughts which should be controlled…

Fickle Things

Her eyes sparkled Tomorrow looked so bright Each step with a bounce Nothing could hold her back ------ Like a window sliding shut The sparkle left her eyes Bleakness filled her view Nothing could take her back ----- ©Oreoluwa Matemilola 2019 All Rights Reserved

Change You | Poem

I remember how I yelled Called you stupid, useless My angry hands left imprints on your face With fingers like claws I marked your skin Leaving scars that hold stories of the hate I cried over you With wonder at how dumb you are Why, just why can you not be like everyone else? Why…

Look Within | POEM

There is always someone to speak to… and I hope we all find that someone before we get to the end of our ropes.   When night approaches & shadows arrive, When a perfect day suddenly turns around, When that good relationship fails, Look within, I'm not that far away.   When a loved one…